Sunday, October 09, 2005

grandmas house

Had a dream where I was at my grandmas house; I was in the living room and she was in the kitchen. I went into the kitchen, and she looked somewhat younger. I then knew I was dreaming or something and knew the person wasnt really my grandma. I went close to her and started screaming over and over. I was screaming aloud in real-life, my fiance woke me up because I was screaming very loud over and over.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Hand Energy

In one of the lucid dreaming books I am reading, it has been observed that waking early, staying up for a couple hours, then going back to sleep can be more likely to trigger a lucid dream. That is what I did this morning, but not intentionally for the purpose of having a lucid dream. I was up about 5:30 am because my kid was up, then went back to sleep around 8:00 because his mother got up.

I was asleep on the couch, and across from me was my fiance holding the kid. I came into a sort of sleep paralysis state, but anymore I do not become panicked. I often slip back into a dream state that I confuse for my waking state. Lately, I have not been becoming aware that this pseudo-awake state is a dream.

When it happened this morning, I could see her and my kid on the chair. I believed that I did actually open my eyes and see them for maybe a second, then slipped back into a highly aware dream state. I was trying to raise my hand to get her attention and kind of mess around with her, because at the time I thought I was in a sleep paralysis state and actually making my body do these things in reality for her to see. Looking back, I realize this movement was all a dream - in reality I was lying still asleep on the couch.

When I raised my hand, I could feel a vibrational energy. I have felt this vibrational energy before, but it is usually very chaotic and unpleasant, and felt throughout my entire body in a sleep paralysis state. But this time I could feel it in my hand when I raised it, and it wasnt unpleasant.

Next, I used both hands and raised them in the air, palms facing each other. I could feel the energy vibrating, controllably, in the area between my hands. If I pulled my hands farther apart, the energy would increase. I would do this, increase the energy to a higher level, then "let go". When I did this, something happened. I for some reason cant recall the full details of the effect, but I do remember it made me feel very good and more aware in the dream state, and also changed my surroundings into more of a dream state. From what I remember I did this at least a couple of times.

One of the strange things about this experience is, that when it was actually happening I remember enjoying the way the energy would "charge me", but it wasnt amazing or suprising to me that I could do this. It wasnt amazing to me until I actually woke up and looked back on what happened.

The way I woke up was finding myself in another aware sleep paralysis state, and moaning a weird noise that I am actually able to make audible in waking reality. I intentionally do this as a signal for my fiance to wake me up - ive done it numerous times before and when I do she knows what is going on with me and to wake me up. She thinks Im a complete nut case though.

This is also listed on my other blog, a much more serious and in depth collection of lucid dreaming info thelucidmind.blogspot.com

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Killler Dillard & Willard

Had a dream where two dogs (one white and the other black) had to be named. We ended up naming the white one Killer Dillard and the black one Willard. For some reason, the black dog had to be named after a black person, so Willard was after willard scott? (Dont even know who that is).
There was also some big deal about the names rhyming.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Lucid within lucid

Had a strange dream involving that started out with burying dead people. The environment was a sunny grassy hillside but there was this row of sort of above ground stone boxes with each one containing some type of relative. We were putting people in them, a lot of jessicas relatives, but im not sure if they were dead. The stone boxes were contained inside this big room with stone walls but no ceiling so it was still sunny.

Then in the same area, I was able to walk up to the window of an old house on this sunny hillside in the country, and observe my grandma when she was much younger.

Then I was walking along the hill with my 2 uncles, brian and kyle, and my brother. I told them about observing my grandma, then I told them it was because we were dreaming and I had become lucid. They didnt believe me so I started to float up in the air, and they were all suprised and excited and we kind of started flying around or something. I also remember telling them to look at their hands, and I remember looking at mine but nothing was too strange about them, they looked pretty much like my hands or at least I thought.

I still cant decide if I was truly lucid, or just dreaming that I was lucid. This was really strange. Because I did really tell them that I was dreaming, and I did start floating because I wanted to.

But another reason is that it was a dream within a dream. After being lucid with my uncles and bro, we "woke up" and were at my grandmas sitting at the kitchen table. I asked them, did you guys remember being lucid? At first Kylel said he did, but brett couldnt really remember. Then brian came out to sit at the table, but he really wouldnt talk about it. I remember thinking that he knew and could remember but was just uncomfortable talking about it.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

andy dick

Kept waking up last night, only thing i remember is riding in a car with some friend and Andy Dick. We were talking and then he said what is with the boobs dude? I looked and I had really big man boobs.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Old Homes

Remember a dream where I was living back in former stepdads house, and my former stepbrother was there. We were our age now, but didnt get along and argued just as we did when we lived together.

The second dream is more vivid because I woke up, fell back asleep and dreamed this dream before getting up for the day. My brother and I went to my old house in Macomb. We went in and were looking around, some of my old stuff was there and we started getting it. Then we saw a TV, it wasnt ours but we decided to take that too. My brother pulled the car (my ford focus) in the living room. Then I realized someone else probably lived there now. I was telling him to get the car out of the house but he couldnt, we couldnt figure out how he got it in there in the first place.

Then the occupant of the house was coming home. I should have known, I thought, because school had started a few days before. It was a kid we kind of knew who has white hair and works at the harley shop. He seemed cool and we were talking to him, but then he flipped out and tried to hit me. We wanted to get out, so I picked up the car (which was significantly smaller at this point) and put it outside. Then we took off in a go cart, and drove away. We didnt know anyone else up there (even though my sister lives there) and we had left my car behind, so we drove to a gas station to call for a ride. We had to wait there for a while, and a lady had offered us ten bucks to take a box of something down the street to Perkins restraunt, which she said was near best buy. We walked a few blocks down the road and the environment suddenly turned from small town to Manhattan. We saw best buy in a large complex, went in and got lost. Last I remember we were asking directions from a guy and girl I know in real life, but didnt in the dream. (Mike McCann and Nikki Jacobsen) They were dating and were being really shady about giving directions.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Aggitation

Dreamed jess and I stayed at at my grandmas house. we were up late playing video games so my grandma put alex to sleep in the bathtub. she was mad and saying what a bad person jess was for playing video games all night.

also dreamed in a similar setting (grandmas neighborhood) todd was back in town staying in some house by my grandmas, and he was mad and pissed about somehting. Tried talking to him but he was just pissed. Eric Lee was across the street and said something like good luck trying to talk to todd today

also have brief recollection of another dream, I was standing in front of a mirror putting on a button up shirt, and some girl told me I was very sexy. I looked in the mirror and had my hair frosted blonde, fit body, and looked alot like brad pit. I remember thinking, yeah i am really good looking.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Some lucidity

Had some lucid dreaming as I was falling asleep last night, was a very light level. Was laying on couch at moms and alex was on floor. When I closed my eyes I realized I was in a very light level of dreaming, I got so excited I woke up. Fell asleep again, and was waiting for a dream to start. Suddenly I realized I was waiting and staring at my feet, but it took me a bit to realize I was seeing my feet in sandals because I was dreaming. Dream did not last beyond this.

Having trouble recalling the nights dreams.